The home

Sometimes by creating a safe place for those we love, we are healing our own traumas. We are healing our own wounds and that what we did not have. This is why we know exactly what this person needs. A love. A peace. An acceptance. A shelter for a hurt soul. A safeheaven. And then, you can stand in the middle of the worst storm and still feel safe.

#love #home #safeheaven #healing



I guess it is pretty easy to guess the letters that come after this F. I finally got the answer. So, I can summarize it pretty easily, my 10+ years of experience has no whatsoever worth in this country. Nothing. Nada. I have to do the exam, and not only that, i have to wait f..cking 8 month to take it. Like is there anything that a person can normally do in this country? People come from EU countries like Poland or Bulgaria, they take no language test and they come straight from the Uni , no experience and in three months they get German Approbation. I wait here for more than two years and I have to wait another eight months. I feel completely disappointed and ruined. They already blocked me for two years and now eight months more. Like is there an end in this hell? Germany for a doctor that comes from non-EU country? Complete wrong move. Like couldn’t they say this two years ago?  You are a foreign doctor, we don’t care about your experience from your good for nothing country and your good for nothing education, do the exam. Was it so hard to do it? No, when I count this time I waited and additional eight months waiting for exam it comes almost to three years of my life. Idiots, idiots, idiots.

Im Westen nichts neues

Still waiting without any news. I have no problem taking additional exams. Language, internal medicine, surgery, you name it. But sitting around without any news is killing me. I called the regional Government again. They told me that it is still ongoing and they cannot tell me anything. You can come here without a day of work experience from Bulgaria and you get Approbation in maximally three months. Or you come from Drittstaat with 10plus years of experience and you wait like an idiot almost two years.
What amazes me is the arrogance of these people. In five years according to statistics one third of German doctors will be retired. And than what? One would expect they would appreciate people willing to come here and work. No, not in this lifetime.


My body is paying the price for all the stress I am facing with this never-ending story with Approbation (permit to work as a doctor in Germany). I have already faced feeling lost, depression like symptoms including not being able to concentrate myself and remember things. Since Monday morning I got pain in my upper right thigh on the lateral (outer) side and I thought I strained a tendon or something like that. I tried to massage it but I did not go away. Besides that I ignored the fact that I had chills. This morning I found a rash in the belt region and I knew right away what happened.  The same virus that causes chickenpox, after you had it, stays in our body, more precisely in the nerves. When something goes wrong with the immunity, mostly at old people, but also by patients who have issues with immunity (HIV, cancer or smth like that) it comes out and causes troubles. It also happen to people who are under stress. In my case, too much stress caused by waiting without any signs of possibility to find out my destiny any time soon. I have read a lot of media reports and German media is starting to talk about the obstacles that “imported doctors” face when they come here. There is more awareness on, sometime injustice we are facing on our road. Still, no changes in real life.  I have faced situation where a doctor coming from EU land, former East Bloc without a single day of work experience got an Approbation without any kind of knowledge test while experienced doctors from third countries wait for ages. I feel totally helpless. No signs that this will come to end. I have no trouble with taking additional exams. I would much prefer taking additional exams than wait for ever for some letter that does not come. I wish I could learn what is going on. I tried calls, mails and nothing brought me any new information.

Dr.Oetker cooked today

I get easily depressed these days. Do I need to say that I did not get any news from the Regierung today? Of course. And than in the middle of the day I felt like my life is so shit and so on and so on. And than I thought a little food did not hurt anybody.
So, I have to say, if you feeling like eating a pizza at home, and you have no lust to wait for delivery, that is really expensive in Germany opt for dr.Oetker. These pizzas are crusty, tasty and make the day much better. Enjoy 😉