My body is paying the price for all the stress I am facing with this never-ending story with Approbation (permit to work as a doctor in Germany). I have already faced feeling lost, depression like symptoms including not being able to concentrate myself and remember things. Since Monday morning I got pain in my upper right thigh on the lateral (outer) side and I thought I strained a tendon or something like that. I tried to massage it but I did not go away. Besides that I ignored the fact that I had chills. This morning I found a rash in the belt region and I knew right away what happened. The same virus that causes chickenpox, after you had it, stays in our body, more precisely in the nerves. When something goes wrong with the immunity, mostly at old people, but also by patients who have issues with immunity (HIV, cancer or smth like that) it comes out and causes troubles. It also happen to people who are under stress. In my case, too much stress caused by waiting without any signs of possibility to find out my destiny any time soon. I have read a lot of media reports and German media is starting to talk about the obstacles that “imported doctors” face when they come here. There is more awareness on, sometime injustice we are facing on our road. Still, no changes in real life. I have faced situation where a doctor coming from EU land, former East Bloc without a single day of work experience got an Approbation without any kind of knowledge test while experienced doctors from third countries wait for ages. I feel totally helpless. No signs that this will come to end. I have no trouble with taking additional exams. I would much prefer taking additional exams than wait for ever for some letter that does not come. I wish I could learn what is going on. I tried calls, mails and nothing brought me any new information.